One Single True Emotion

.... for G ....

When I'm with you I feel a freedom
That I don't feel any other time
The tender fingers of my lover
In my hair and on my skin
Tracing gently just a outline
Along my arm and through my fingers
Hold my body and my soul
In just a single loving motion
Sweetly, softly, arms around me
Feel a whisper gently touch me
In my ear and on my face
Meet very gentle trembling lips with
The exact same from deep within
Move my heart and soul together
With just a single true emotion
That I live for, even die for
As the sun rises every morning
And the dusk settles every night
Deep in my heart I felt a longing
For my true love to come running
He'd have roses and a kiss
To melt the ice around my lips
And in my heart since I discovered
The path of true love is fraught with danger
So many tigers every which way
And in the moonlight, there is anger
As my past loves flash before me
Can that darkness be behind me
In the shadows of my life past
And in this moment can I move on
To a day which can be lighter
Instead of anger, there is laughter
Every heartbeat another chapter
Of this new life which lies before me
Every moment I can let it
So those painful thoughts inside me
Caress my soul release my heart
Into the radiance of this new day
And the difference of this new way
I can feel it now stir in me
As I write about this freedom
And the importance of that motion
To live for true love
To feel devotion

A Ode To You Both - For L & J

I met L way back when
she didn’t even know J then
we first met in a tai chi class
and true-heart friends have come to pass

I met J at Poulstone that night
when the air was chill and the stars were bright
J put her foot in an icy boot
and we made snow angels before the first group

one night at L’s there was a guitar and beer
but we both wished that J was here
J was away, in Norway I think
and without her, it was like a pen with no ink

as I have grown to know both of them
and we have all come to be best of friends
we are sometimes close and sometimes far
honest and true, while we are who we are

the path of life is a rocky old stone
it’s much better together than to go it alone
as the water flows underneath their bridge
and the cats get fed by the big tall fridge

is it L & J, or J & L
believe me it’s a constant debate
to me it doesn’t matter because
a mate, is a mate, is a mate

a Capricorn with Sagittarius rising
and Aquarius, it’s hardly surprising
there is Earl Grey tea in the afternoon pot
over which we have laughed and cried a lot

they are my good friends, both of them are
and my wish for them now, on a shining star
is a heart shaped life will lie ahead
and their journey be wrapped in a golden thread

they are the fruit in each others juice
from ancient patterns they are trying to shake loose
Merlin and his healing essence
are in their lives now to assist in these lessons

ceaseless, slow, they do the work
to witness it’s amazing
it would take, all day and night
to tell of their trail blazing

like when J went to the workshop and left her keys in the house front door
instead of her aged old response of collapsing reactively on the floor
she sat in her van, all peaceful and calm and said to herself “oh well”
and then she rang me up from there, with this awesome tale to tell

mostly, L gives herself permission these days
to do it as her will
not having to do it all right now
that’s ok and L is still

take heart dear souls when things are tough
there is always a diamond in the rough
and on days when you’re suffering a stormy sky
take comfort in each other, there’s no need to ask why

J may choose chalk while L picks cheese
still one is the tissue for the other ones sneeze
I don’t need to ask should they be together
it’s obvious to me like birds of a feather

They love one another, if you look, you can see
or L wouldn’t let J, win on the Wii
Each a different ice-cream, both in the same scoop
will J ever really hula her hoop

they live for love and they love to give
in a conscious way they strive to live
two sides of a coin, one heads and one tails
un-doing their best to stay on the rails

they are both very beautiful beings
in a loving relationship, doing their thing
I wish them the best as from here they set sail
adding more riches to this living tale

now what’s this about ?
L is at work, she’s banged her head on the door
you’re getting married in the morning
why didn’t you do that the week before !

it was poetry in motion
as I watched them pledge devotion
did I ever think they’d tie the knot
I don’t believe so, I just hoped a lot

J ;
L said to me, she brings you biscuits when you’re sad
and
L ;
I’ve watched you let J become, the love you never thought you’d have

This poem kept me up all night
and now it’s 5am
but you both are worth it one hundred fold
and I would do the same again

I love you guys
AND
I wish you together a most marvellous life

xx


SH May 2011

Letting Go Further

I sit here at home alone
with words we do not say
it’s been so long
I think I know
what I am feeling anyway

If I told you I couldn’t see you
would you be sad at all in fact
an ego dent, more lessons learned
and my soul and spirit still intact

I have so much love to give
a huge heart behind this face
honestly the only way
into that sacred place

maybe it is time to go
say thanks, goodbye and so
back into the world at large
put out again my joyful wish
to love and be loved in return
an equal portioned dish

I can let go, I know I can
and if it’s time, I will
I’m not completely certain yet
deep waters are unstill

SH February 2011