It's Pure Pain

I imagine you with her
On just an ordinary day
You tuck her hair behind her ear
In just your ordinary way

Both sitting there to watch TV
There are no words you need
You reach across to touch her face
It's purely love you're there to feed

She looks lovingly at you and smiles
She knows you'll always care
She holds your hand and squeezes it
Both manifesting love you share

Sitting side by side you are
Her body draped upon you
Your hand on her there'll always be
The sweetest love to join you

In a tenderly and gentle way
She feels loving arms support her
Close enough to feel your heartbeat
As your soft breath falls around her

On her forehead falls a kiss
She's waiting for another
There's nothing deeper in this world
Than this connection with her mother

There's a sparkle in her eyes because
You're bonded with your daughter
And that's the way it should be done
This is not uncharted water


I wish I wanted her with me
On just an ordinary day
But she never touched my hair like that
She could never be that way

We never sat to watch TV
She never sowed the seed
She never reached to touch my face
There was never any love to feed

If I had looked at her and smiled
She would have then suspected
I needed her to hold my hand
No hint of love detected

Look how far apart we are
And how hard I tried to love her
She always turned away from me
And now I no longer want her

She couldn't seem to find a way
To put her arms around me
I never heard her heartbeat
Or felt her breath surround me

Never did I get a kiss
And I could wait forever
That pleasure did not visit me
From the land of never never

There's no sparkle in my eyes at all
She never bonded with her daughter
It didn't have to be that way
But she put poison in the water

SH November 2008