Remembering Jill

There's a sea in my mind
It's a sea of some kind
It's swirling and swirling
Till it seems I can find
A calmness to wash away feelings of doubt
As a wave crashes in and it washes them out
Serenity is where the currents they meet
If I just look down it is there at my feet
The freedom to be with all that I wish
The peace and the silence some things that I miss
But it burns like a fire with such a hot flame
It traps me then frees me then traps me again
There's a branch and it's caught
As it captures a thought
It bends me and breaks me
I snap like a twig
My body so small yet my mind is so big
And I can't let it go
My reactions too slow
Over and over
The world's gonna blow
Outside is inside
Or is inside out
Can I sit in the boat, simply trust it will float
As I rest all at sea
That sea in my mind
Is a sea of some kind