No More Tears - Just Tigers

As I sink to step, ride the wave with me
I wanted so much perfect eyes that would see
That softness is the space which holds
Slowly as my all unfolds
My noble spine, from sky to earth
Which allows me poise and shows me my worth
If only I could rest there still
Allowing my lonely heart to fill
My form with love and amazing grace
But the camera rolls and I loose my place
Can't look inside, I'm caught in my head
I was hoping for joy, all I'm feeling is dread
It's winter in my heart and it's happening again
Lots of dark clouds and here comes the rain
The sun goes in and the lights go out
This isn't it I wanted to shout
The walls come up, there's no escape
And once again, the mistakes that I make
The stick which lies tucked in the wings
Beats the beat, but no-one sings
Why oh why do I do this shit
I try on the shoes and they never fit
I want the perfect leaf to fall
Like the perfect tree stands tall
I want to be alone no more
Black and white tears on a monochrome floor
Hold me close and feel my pain
My expectations are all down the drain
I'm reaching out with nothing to give
And here in this moment, no reason to live
But tomorrow I know is a different day
And I can do this in a whole other way
Resting with this hurt and this pain
I know tomorrow will not be the same
A slice of sun is all that I need
To shine down upon my tiny heart seed
It can warm up the love that I've come to know
And join me again with my energy flow

SH November 2006