Do I Really Want To Die ?

If I scratch my vein
With something sharp like a blade
Will there be blood ?
Will the blood free me from myself ?
Will I bleed all the tears I want to bleed ?
Will the hot, sticky redness be enough ?
Will it take away the pain ?
Will I want to leave the scratch
Until I die ?
Do I really want to die ?
Or do I want to live
More than anything in the world ?

SH November 2008