Why Am I Still So Afraid

So a poem for now
I don't really know how
To express what I feel
Or if it is real
I mean deep down inside
It's safe where I hide
And oh so austere
It's the light that I fear
And the way it might make
People see I'm a fake
Why am I still so afraid

I like it here where it's dark
And I know there's a spark
But if I curl tight
I can't see any light
Can pretend it's ok
Can forget night and day
It doesn't matter within
Because this is the skin
That I show to the earth
I have since my birth
Why am I still so afraid

If I stay alert
I'll never get hurt
I'm sure it will work
They'll just think I'm a berk
But won't ask me why
No-one knows that I cry
Cry in the night
I ache for the light
The light that can give
A lift, let me live
Why am I still so afraid