It's Just How It Is

The trees, the birds, the sun, the earth
Don't touch me the way that they have
I am inside myself and it's different today
I feel sad and reserved and there's nothing to say
It's not good what I feel and it's just how it is
Can I rest in this moment with nothing to give
Am I trying too hard to be silent inside
This mandala day, I'm just here for the ride
I could wish I felt different, there's no point in that
Hanging on to the memories of this and of that
I could look to future with hope in my heart
No point in that either, right here is the start
I am what I am like the tides of the sea
They ebb in the moment, with the flow they are free
I sit here in my chair and I breathe in the air
See a glimmer of something that's just under there
I remember two grains of wisdom I heard
That 'To Be Is Enough' and that 'Now Is The Word'
If I take down the person I placed on the shelf
At the base of the pile, that is my true self
Under layers and layers, after years of this shit
Fear and more fear and that just is not it
Let go of it all and believe I won't fall
Much easier to say than to do
If I could just do it
Believe just a little bit
Beneath all that stuff, there is truth and there's love
Then my heart could let go, rise above

SH April 2006