Wishing For A Fire In The Hearth

Why do I punish me this way
Because I know no other way
Love is missing from my bones
I just want a loving home
A fire burning in the hearth
No-one warning, fire is hot
I will not touch, I know a lot
I know more than
They never trust I can
I didn't need a heavy hand
Just a lift, a kiss, a hug
From a warmth of knowing love
It's so much harder to start now
I do not even know how
I'm being taught though
By great teachers
Ones who understand my plight
They also know how hard I fight
I try so hard to let them in
Their love sets my mind into a spin
I strive and strive
As I head for
Being Alive
With Love

SH January 2006