Just Stop

Sad, very sad
I've been bad, very bad
Makes me mad at myself
I could stop it and I don't
Could I stop it ? I don't know
Get confused, feeling fear
Am I determined not to hear
Something calls out my name
Or is it just playing a game
Did the cat catch the mouse
Does he live in this house
Will this non sense ever makes sense
Will I always be stuck in this rut
Trapped inside, where I hide
From myself and the light
It could free me
From this dark and cold place
Can't allow what it takes to be free
From the person I call me
Who is not even that
Just a jester in a hat
Who pretends and connives
Who is playing with my lives
I have to stop
right here
just stop

SH January 2006